#Les garçons

Les Garcons = The Boys.

I sometimes wonder what boys think. And how they think. Their perspective of life. Their perspective of school. What they think of a certain type of girl. How their brain works. What they talk about among themselves, what they think about. I'm making them sound like a different species. But what I know is that guys (in general/most of them) are more chilled and laid back compared to (us) girls. I mean some of them. But it would be nice to be able to understand the opposite sex sometimes. No I'm not having boy problems. I never did. It's just that I wonder a lot. teehee.

But then again, everyone is different. So I can't really wonder how "boys" are like and stereotype them because people think and react differently. People have different personality. I hope you know what I mean.

I have been reading novels written by male authors. And so maybe I would get to know and understand more.

This topic didn't inspire me to wonder. But the pictures did!

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Secondly, Today, I decided to take out my film camera, Alfalfa! (I've not used it since last year/changed a roll of film) and when I took it out, I realized how much I've missed taking pictures with it. It looked so gorgeous and imperfectly perfect. I love how solid it is. I love how worn out it is (but still bothers to carry on taking pictures to make me happy), I love how I have to wind the film before any pictures, I love how the shutter sounds > CHEEPEKAK. And what my blog is missing, is developed pictures!

Happy Weekend! Byebye! :D

#Hi

I am sorry that I haven't been updating. I miss updating this blog. I've been taking tonnes of pictures! And I can't wait to put them up. Here's a quick update on my life. I miss blogging so so so much. I miss blogging at www.yourstupidityastoundsme.blogspot.com! Maybe I would. Soon..

Okay I'm gonna list down some things about my life so far! (hehe) :

1. My water broke.
2. I'm pregnant.
3. AGHGHGHG AGHGHG BABY'S COMING OUT.
4. I'm at KL now and will be here till the 2nd. So I'm missing all the outings with my friends at JB *sigh* but look at the brightside! I get to spend my last few days of the holiday with my family members! :)
5. I got 6A's 1B for PMR and I'm really happy with that.
6. My parents are getting me a Macbook Pro. But before they agreed on getting me one, I told them that if they don't think I deserve it and if they're not willing to spend that much on me, then it's fine! But they're getting me one anyway. I told them that because I didn't want to feel guilty having one/use it heavy-heartedly if they're not willing to buy one for me. But I guess they are willing to buy one for me! I even told my dad that I'll pay 2/3 of it and he went "DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE MONEY?!" HAHA. Because honestly, I don't think I deserve the Macbook Pro. But I really want one. I think that it would be useful for me :D
   
7. I had amazing food for my Christmas dinner.
8. I'm down with a flu/throat infection/cough/ AND I THINK I SPRAINED MY NECK heh.
9. I just missed Man Vs Wild because my mum wanted to watch a Christmas Movie. *Sigh* But all's good! :D
10. School is gonna start and I'm not prepared. I'll be back from KL on the 2nd anyway, so I have no idea how I'm gonna get ready.
11. I NEED TO PEE SO BAD.
12. I LOVE ZEBRAS.
13. I always feel so proper/old in this blog IDKY.
14. IT'S A BABY BOY.
    

That's about it! Oh yeah. You can follow me (scroll down there to follow) if you want to! So you can get updated about my updates and stuff. Well, only if you wanna. I gtg pee now. I really can't take it. My goodness. I miss blogging so much! Byebye! Ciao!

# Click-e-di-click

I just added this "yay!" or "nay." thingy down there. So click it if you think the posts are "yay!"/"nay." if you feel like it. It used to be "BOAT, SEA, FISH" or something like that but I think people didn't get it and neither did I. I'll be off for church camp tomorrow so I think I will add pictures today :)

# Hello!

Hello! Here are some new pictures! I know I haven't been here for a really long time :S

I like how they look wrong and yet right. Knees.

Dad's.

I wanted to save this picture for christmas actually. but oh well! :)

This picture is making me so hungry right now! lnklnfwekl.

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I know that I said that I won't write down how I feel in here and etc. But right now, I really feel like I should. It annoys me on how I am making things so complicated for myself when there is nothing to complicate. I hate it a lot. Especially when I'm alone at night in a quiet room - quietness, loud enough to be heard by the deaf. And in that quiet room, my head starts to think thoughts that I don't wish to. It kidnaps me. And I hate it. They murder me with the sadness. A sadness that does not exist in reality but only in my thoughts. I wish that I didn't have feelings and thoughts. I wish that I wouldn't feel this way. I wish that I could sleep them away. I wish that one night, I could finally sleep with happy thoughts. Or fall asleep without thinking.

Does anyone feel this way too?

I hate how I feel. I have felt this way before, actually. But I got over it eventually. But right now, I don't know how. I miss how I used to go with the flow. But no matter how much I tell myself to go with the flow now, I just drown. I need a solace. Where are you?

I wish that I didn't have to do this to post this up here. But I just felt like it. I know I shouldn't think this way. But thoughts overcome feelings. Thoughts are like a tsunami destroying how you feel. Well, that's how I feel. I feel so awful now.

Lord Jesus, I need You.